56 minutes ago
From "The Scarlet Flower : a Russian folk tale ', illustration by Gennady Kalinovsky
GENUINELY I think it was disconnecting from everything related to that RP fandom that made my bad spell lift
while my depression is chemical, I think all the stressing from canon and fandom really exacerbated it
it is a huge shame bc it did mean losing a lot of fun too and people I really enjoyed connecting with but I know this is much better for me
I had a wonderful day volunteering at the wildlife sanctuary. I might do that again tomorrow, or I might go out to a new Korean restaurant that opened and/or start a painting. Just having a nice peaceful time.


do steven universe fans know that "you guys say you want mean/complicated female characters but couldn't even handle steven universe" is more of a diss on steven universe than the people actually hating on it?
like it does genunally come across as "you guys want mean female characters but couldn't handle steven universe which due to being a kid show has very minimal amounts of conflict and messiness so the fact you think the diamonds or lapis or pearl are bad characters means you couldn't handle actually mean female characters". like. that's what that sounds like right?
and i do genuinely think that gives the show a disservice, cause i LIKE how messy and sort of fucked up pearl is as a character, i think she has a lot of layers to her, and she's not really a character i think you're suppose to have 100 percent positive feelings about and that's what i love about her. it's the same reason i don't really hate pink diamond as much as i hate the other diamonds, because is actually love the concept of her starting out as a character that everyone looks up to, and steven feelis he won't be able to live to up, and ends with steven being afraid he's TOO MUCH like his mother. i fucking love that that's genuinely really cool and like. i dunno it doesn't sound like the more people try to defend it the less interesting the show comes across as.
my favorite social media thing is a when a skinny girl posts a tiktok of herself doing like a dance or whatever, with her fat boyfriend and someone reposts it on twitter with the caption "see incels! you don't have to be attractive to get a girlfriend, you have have to be kind!" which like a get the sentiment but that's extremely fucked up thing to say about a random person.
also don't take this as a defense as incels (because it isn't) but i do think it's a bit dishonest to pretend that no woman has every rejected a man on the grounds of being too fat, like don't get me wrong straight women are alot less shallow than incels give them credit for, but like, fat women also face rejection based entirely on appearance, i don't think it's incel rhetoric to acknowledge pretty privilege is sort of a thing. a little bit.
but also you can just think a fat person is attractive, or a balding person or whatever, like personally is still important but i don't think we need to assume every fat guy dating a skinny girl "MUST be super nice because otherwise why would she be with him" you know?